Monday, February 1, 2010

What a day!

So, my day was going along pretty good, then I needed to go run an errand for work. Since Steve & one of the other employees were on a job, I went back to tell Keith (yes, that's the same guy who lost his wife then bragged about the money he was getting), and he was intently studying his sexy girl calendar instead of working, UGH! He had it off the wall flipping through the pages. He didn't hear me open the door to the shop because his radio was on. Busted! I hope I embarrassed the heck out of him. He didn't go in the break room for his break this afternoon, so he must have been afraid I'd say something. I'll let Steve handle that one if he wants to. At least I didn't catch him doing something else, if you know what I mean.
The good news I have is that my sister is going to work one day a week at the shop. This will give me some down time, which I really need. My brain is on fast mode all the time. I feel scattered, not grounded. I am a creative person but can't get my thoughts together long enough to be creative. So one day a week, she will come in & I will stay home. This helps us both out. The pharmacy she worked for closed last year when Walgreens came to town and we all know how hard it is to find a job these days. So she will get some extra money & time out of the house & I will get...we'll see. I hope to get some peaceful meditation, my creative juices flowing, help my memory problems by not being so busy...and on & on.
I have been thinking a lot lately about our plans. We worked again at home in Illinois so didn't make it to the farm. The way the economy is right now, I'm not sure we'll be able to sell our townhome or the business building. That puts a holds on the big plan for now. I guess I am starting to accept that this might not work out as we planned. A big delay anyway. It is great that we are busy workwise. A very fortunate problem to have. So I feel guilty when I get sad about the farm. So many are out of work & here I am feeling bad about a dream that many people cannot even fathom. I think I just need to get my mind around a new plan & go with it. It's not like we will never live there. So we have been talking about it lately. I just hope we are not to old to enjoy it once we get there. We will still keep working on it, but might not live there anytime soon. Maybe it will give us more children & grandchild time which is a great thing. See, I am already out of my "funk"!


Anonymous said...

Hang in there! Spring is around the corner and things in the Real Estate business will improve and people will start looking, probably March. At least you can go up and visit and get things ready for when you ARE able to move there. How nice that your sister is able to work one day! Just don't spend that day cleaning house all day! Do something you love!! you earned it!...debbie

The cottage by the Cranelake said...

You make it sound as it will take decades for the economy to turn:-) I bet that it will turn for the better already this spring/early summer. But I do understand so well why You feel sad for not being able to move sooner.

What a good thing that You can take a day of and that Your sister can help out! But as Debbie says, don´t use the day clkeaning up :-)
Have a great day now!

angie said...

Hi Barb - Wow, I agree with you. I sometimes get down in a funk too - I want to live my farm dream now dangit! Others have it so much worse, so instead I try to be thankful.

Barb and Steve said...

I will keep hoping the market will turn around but am not confident that it will. Too many people are in foreclosure & that is driving the prices way down in our area.
I will try not to clean on my new day off, thanks! :-)

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